I haven't been writing, haven't felt any urge to and I've been sick this last week or more. There's no other word that can describe it well - sick, ill, maybe afflicted? I've had dizziness, headaches, itchy hives and foul metallic tastes in my mouth. The killer is, I have felt stronger than ever, which … Continue reading It was me, not the bolognaise
It's 10pm Friday night and it feels like midnight Sunday after being awake all weekend. I've been so sick this week. I lost all my enthusiasm to write. Monday brought dizziness, woozy head, racing heart, heaviness in my limbs so dire I stumbled a few times as my brain thought it was coping with a … Continue reading Pills, ills and bellyaches
Have you ever tried to stuff a bean bag into a small space? If you have, you'll know how silly and challenging it is at the same time, like 10 clowns getting out of a mini, but the other way round and much harder. I've got a brown vinyl bean bag (1 of 2) at … Continue reading Bean Bag Theory
Last night on TV I stumbled across the movie The Matrix. I used to love everything about this film and I'm amazed it's over 15 years old now. The Matrix influenced and change the way action films have been made since then and what I loved about it and had forgotten about it was its … Continue reading There is no spoon
This week I've been so much worse health-wise and I'm looking for a reason, because I don't want to answer to be, this is how it goes. So here are some perfectly reasonable and realistic sounding reasons for why I feel worse this week: * I went to Melbourne for a 24 hour party in … Continue reading I’ve got 99 reasons, but a cure ‘aint one.
After a pain in my right side and a poor appetite all week I am now the proud owner of some apple cider vinegar as recommended by my naturopath. Things I have bought recently that I never would have before: Apple cider vinegar (with the 'Mother'!), goji berries, chia seeds, sesame seeds, pepitas, organic flour, … Continue reading Things I never would have bought…
...and I don't know what's changed in my body. I know a lot has changed in my life and its limitations. Getting out of bed is still hard, and when I say hard that means I lie there for a while gathering the strength to sit up and when I do it's often more a … Continue reading 7 months in
It's hard to strike the right balance when you're feeling ill, between finding understanding and getting mis-informed. Since talking to the specialist, I have become wedded to the idea that I have glandular fever and Parvovirus. It's easier to understand but I also know that it's speculation with an educated guess. Looking on a local ME/CFS … Continue reading A support group that makes you feel worse?
On Friday I ingested 2.5 grams of vitamin D in one hit and today I had over a ml of vitamin B12 injected into my arm. In between I flew to Melbourne for an awards night and was back in just over 24 hours. Result? Cement veins. Is it a human failing or strength to … Continue reading You are not under any orders…
I've been feeling lost at lot this week. The work stuff plays on my mind, so much so that I'm sick of thinking about it. I have to go to a celebration of the result on Saturday night and at the same time I feel happy but like I'm attending a funeral. I feel lost … Continue reading How to be lost