This’ll be a quick update – I’m having trouble with wooziness in the head and looking at computer screens doesn’t help. I expected that after a week of training, long days in a classroom environment, hotel room beds, changed diet and meeting new people I would have some repercussions but I fully expected fatigue not dizziness.
It started with the lifts at the office building, which is why I’m not completely freaked out by this, every time I went down in the lift for coffee I felt dizzy. It was one of those super sonic lifts that lurches into action with a rollercoaster style stomach drop. I only felt dizzy after the lifts and the feeling passed within 10 minutes. However, since the flight home on Friday night, I’ve had fairly constant wooziness, like I’m standing on a boat and it’s pitching underneath me.
I don’t have any blurred vision and I haven’t fallen over but if I had to walk in the dark I am sure I would. I’ve got backaches, neck-aches, tummy-aches and head-aches and concern is very much on my mind (pardon the pun).
Mostly I’m annoyed. I wanted to have to deal with something I expected and new what to do with. This is something new, something potentially serious, something stopping me from continuing my plans I had previously and getting started in my new job which I was excited to do. But isn’t that how all this illness has been? Nothing has ever been what I thought or what I expected.
This morning my daughter asked me ‘What’s your unwell? She’s had blocked ears since a throat infection and we were discussing if we should go to her doctor to get them looked at. She asked ‘Do you remember when you were so tired and couldn’t play Mummy?’ Yes I do I answered, and I’m not that bad any longer. But this new experience is a bad one and I’d like it to pass now, because it will. Maybe I’ll have to stop the new medication and go back to the one that worked better, maybe I’ll have to keep trying, maybe I’ll now be dizzy forever. Nothing would surprise me at this stage. I don’t know what my unwell is.