It's a little bit funny...all these feelings inside... Ok so I've borrowed that from the start of an Elton John song. I've woken up early this morning (5:37am) dead tired, sore neck still - it's been almost 3 months now - and wondered to myself where to from here? Just over 2 years ago, I got … Continue reading This is a big, fat drag!
I can spend hours searching online for answers if the mood strikes me. I fall in and out of feeling the need to search for similar stories to mine and looking for new research, concepts or thoughts. I still feel like I'm looking for what is wrong with me and expecting to find one answer … Continue reading Some lists are good.
I haven't written much lately but that doesn't mean my mind hasn't been working over time. In fact I've thought of so many things to write about but haven't been able to get them out. The trouble that seems to have come with getting a bit better has been a distracted busy mind ( I think … Continue reading Nap time
One day I will not think about being ill anymore. I will not worry about how many hours of sleep I have had or will get. I won't think about the food I'm eating and wonder if it's hurting my body. I won't have anymore blood tests and everyone will have forgotten this happened. One … Continue reading One day…
At 40, I was dealt an opportunity to get off the merry-go-round. To halt the meaningless pursuits of my life, to say goodbye to a job that preached endlessly about reward and recognition but didn't recognise me when I was down. To take stock, slow down and recognise and value what was important. It was … Continue reading bending
I've just returned from a warm getaway to an icy cold house in winter and it's left me feeling annoyed. I did this a month or so ago and was left with a nicer feeling that I'm trying to tap into now. Perhaps this time it's just a much colder return? Perhaps winter has just … Continue reading Now
This may be the dumbest analogy you've ever read but it dawned on me today that managing recovery from a long-term illness is like handling a child's diet... Bear with me... My 4-year-old does not like vegetables - which 4 year old does? - and trying to get them into her diet is torturous for … Continue reading Dumb analogies
...but there is an 'M' and an 'E'... was always my response when people threw this hackneyed phrase at me in some training session. Not because I didn't believe in working in teams, but just to make light of the laziness of using a saying to try to give emphasis to an agenda. When I left … Continue reading There’s no I in TEAM…
They're easy to read Lists gives you a sense of achievement People like to see items on lists they've already completed to check them off No imagination on the part of the writers? Attention spans are ... Have you noticed they never seem to go much higher than the mid-teens? Think about the psychology. I've read listicles citing the three … Continue reading The rise of the listicle – why is everything in list form these days?
To clarify, I have not been told I'm dying, not anymore so than any of the rest of us, and for that I am of course thankful. My 4 year old recently asked me how old are we when we die? These are common questions from her, along with were there houses at the start of … Continue reading My psychologist says I have to think about death