Things have been getting better for me. Progress is slow but I can tell it’s happening especially when I read back over my blogs of the last few years. A constant question that bothers me however, is why? And not so much the existential why me and why did this happen, but a more practical, … Continue reading Day 30: Giving up why
As the month has gone on my desire to write daily has really waned and at first this bothered me but now it doesn’t. I’m not going to make the (arbitrary) target of 50,000 words this month but I will make around 25,000. I’ve learnt quite a bit, but I’ll save that for the last … Continue reading Day 27: The internet is no longer a place for information
I’m really tired. What I think is happening now is that my body is doing a decent job of recovering and continuing to find strength and get on with life but my mind is over-worked. It’s worrying and thinking and turning over situations, questioning everything, trying to find answers and work out what happened and … Continue reading Day 25: Free from second guessing
I seem unable to stick to any plan especially when it involves limiting myself, or what I perceive as limiting. Today I went to a kids party and was offered a coffee and said yes. Right after I’d finished a fizz stick drink (containing caffeine) and I was standing at a hot, steamy indoor public … Continue reading Day 19: Sabotage
Day three started normally enough. I felt tired and groggy but put that down to being woken up many times in the night by my daughter who I was pretty sure was coming down with something. I’d planned a busy day of achieving work goals ahead and was feeling quite blue about the prospect at … Continue reading Day Three: Argh the headache!
I kept to the same pattern today. Breakfast with eggs, detox tea around 11ish, shake and fibre boost for lunch, lots of herbal teas, fizz stick at 4ish and dinner by 6. I have had trouble saying no to the bread though… I had 2 bits of toast with breakfast and garlic bread with dinner, … Continue reading Day Two: Not much to report I’m afraid
Today I read a quote about creativity ... "The creative process does not travel in straight lines. It thrives in the undefined spaces in between." and the idea resonated with me and my experience of recovery. It 'aint a straight line! Some days you feel good and think you're getting better, the next day you … Continue reading Straight lines
I'm feeling pretty lucky. It's been almost 2 weeks since I adjusted the thyroid medications (see last post) and I'm continuing to feel pretty good. I still have some odd complaints, aches in my hip and back and my hands are usually still achey in the mornings but I'm sleeping really well and waking up … Continue reading Stop the madness!
I've been writing mostly in a separate diary recently, I'm trying to pour everything out. It works sometimes to keep me writing when I don't feel like pouring it all out into the world. I've noticed I write a lot about 'I' and 'me'. Understandable I suppose but I'm trying to find new ways to … Continue reading Make hay while the sun shines
Yesterday was spent just hanging with my 5 yr old. I am often so flat these days that it just feels like the best thing to do is to stay home and find stuff to do here. She seems to enjoy it, but I worry about when she’s older, will I have kicked this problem by … Continue reading Thyroid is the word…