post by Elizabeth Gilbert (click the link) During the hardest times of the last 10 months, my brain would be churning with thoughts and ideas and often just as I was wanting to go to bed, the trials of the day would need to be expressed and writing my blog gave me the outlet to do … Continue reading Tips for the creative
Watching ‘The Project’ on TV tonight I was taken by surprise with the story on a Syrian family, drowned at sea and washed up on a Turkish beach while trying to escape conflict and by the intense sadness I felt at seeing the images of the lifeless 3 year olds’ body lifted by a uniformed … Continue reading Something that moved me tonight
I've been feeling lost at lot this week. The work stuff plays on my mind, so much so that I'm sick of thinking about it. I have to go to a celebration of the result on Saturday night and at the same time I feel happy but like I'm attending a funeral. I feel lost … Continue reading How to be lost
I've been thinking this week about cancelling my next appointment with my GP. I'm wondering what good it will do me to go along and have the same discussion as last time. I have not taken the Cymbalta and I doubt I will. It feels like I'd be adding another thing for my immune system … Continue reading What do I do now?
Let me start by saying, I don't have the answer. Our ideas about what makes a happy life would be as different from person to person and culture to culture as the colours on a butterfly's wings are different. Maslow's hierarchy gives us an indication of what we need; put really simply, food, sleep, safety, love and purpose. … Continue reading What makes a good life?
I visited the rheumatologist again today. There wasn't really anything more for us to talk about since mostly the pain in my joints resolved a long time ago. He bent my wrists and elbows in a few different directions, advised me to slow down even more and not to expect to get any better over … Continue reading Things could be worse
Last Friday night my little one came down with a bug or ate something that disagreed with her and was up for 4 hours vomiting in the early part of the night. I eventually got to bed at 1am and then we were up again at normal time (I look forward to her working out … Continue reading Thankful for the symptoms
Today it's almost 18 weeks since I first fell ill and I thought I'd share a post I wrote but didn't publish 9 weeks ago. At the time it felt too raw to put up, but now I can see the worth of having written it, because things are better. I have made some changes, … Continue reading I was looking back to see if you were looking back at me to see me looking back at you.
I woke this morning, having thought I was already awake, from a horribly frightening and angry dream. Last night I watched a discussion on Insight about anger and the four panelists talked about how they used anger in their jobs from head chef to rugby player to get what they wanted. They even interviewed a … Continue reading Walking the thin line
It should feel like peace shouldn't it? Accepting the situation I'm in, should feel good, relaxing and calming. But it feels like sadness. Reading the Existentialists philosophy of which I have hardly read any more than this quote below tells me that no matter what you do you will experience regrets either way and that … Continue reading If change feels like fear, what does acceptance feel like?