It's that annoying time of the year when the days are getting longer, the sun is rising earlier and I'm waking up at ridiculous times again. We should be rejoicing as spring comes but this winter is really hanging on and being a pain in the butt. This time last year we were well into … Continue reading Hey! Fever…
At 40, I was dealt an opportunity to get off the merry-go-round. To halt the meaningless pursuits of my life, to say goodbye to a job that preached endlessly about reward and recognition but didn't recognise me when I was down. To take stock, slow down and recognise and value what was important. It was … Continue reading bending
This may be the dumbest analogy you've ever read but it dawned on me today that managing recovery from a long-term illness is like handling a child's diet... Bear with me... My 4-year-old does not like vegetables - which 4 year old does? - and trying to get them into her diet is torturous for … Continue reading Dumb analogies
...but there is an 'M' and an 'E'... was always my response when people threw this hackneyed phrase at me in some training session. Not because I didn't believe in working in teams, but just to make light of the laziness of using a saying to try to give emphasis to an agenda. When I left … Continue reading There’s no I in TEAM…
One bit of advice you will receive when dealing with a chronic illness is to 'get your life how you want it'. I first wrote about this idea here https://strangelabel.wordpress.com/2016/01/14/phraseology/ but only in brief because I hadn't tackled it yet. And here's the thing... it's not easy. It sounds easy. It sounds wonderful. But what I've discovered … Continue reading Get your life how you want it
Hashimoto's Thyroiditis... The third doctor at the new centre (since the beginning, 18 months ago, she's the 6th) ran a range of blood tests which showed antibodies to my own thyroid. They were reported as in the 'normal range' which is a term I've come to know well and distrust. My T3 and T4 levels … Continue reading Diagnosis #6…or is it #7?
I was having a bit of a re-read over my blog this morning at 5am, as you do when you have a pounding sinus headache that won't let you sleep... just on that, I have a cold. I have a cold. I haven't had a cold since I started this whole journey 18 months ago. … Continue reading I have a cold
Stress. I've always thought of it as something business-men get (yes the men was intentional there). I imagine white collars with ties pulled down from the neck, sweating, waving papers about. That's stress. People have thrown about the term 'stressed out' for years. Tired and emotional was always a euphemism for drunk and 'suffering from … Continue reading If this is de-stressing, why does it feel so uncomfortable?
Yesterday I visited the third new doctor at Integrative Health Solutions (the other two having left shortly after I saw them!) and came away with a new term for what they think is going on with me. HPA Axis Dysregulation. Turns out, according to the literature they gave me, it's the correct term for what people label … Continue reading Another new diagnosis
It's late again. The internet's switched off. It's almost as if that off switch turns on the power to complete the train of thoughts that have been scratching around the back of my mind all day. I've been really hard on myself for the last week, without even realising it. The psychologist told me to ban … Continue reading What’s going on in my mind?