What’s going on in my mind?

It's late again. The internet's switched off. It's almost as if that off switch turns on the power to complete the train of thoughts that have been scratching around the back of my mind all day. I've been really hard on myself for the last week, without even realising it. The psychologist told me to ban …

Hyper-vigilance

Why do these thoughts come to me so late?  Often, I'm getting ready to go to bed, I've shut down the computer and suddenly a blog post thought arrives. Tonight my mind was boggling.  I was marvelling at the long path, the really long road I’ve taken to get here.  Not that here is the …

My eyelids are peeling

Over the year and a half that I've been unwell I've had various symptoms, some worrying, some amusing that may or may not be related to hypothyroidism.  And the only reason I think that is my diagnosis (after post viral fatigue, human Parvovirus B19, Glandular Fever, vitamin deficiencies and Fibromyalgia) is because the thyroid medication is working.  More …

Hard edges

Being a parent gives you hard edges.  With my 4 year old we're at the stage where I'm telling her off every few minutes.  You almost couldn't script it better with things I never thought I'd need to say like 'don't touch that, put that down, sit up straight, don't throw that there, pick that up, I'm not …

I cleaned my bathroom today

Yup, I did.  Well I didn't even finish cleaning it but I did more than I have done for months. Something's been bugging me since I saw the clinical psychologist last week.  I had told her that when I wasn't working or looking after my child, I found it hard to relax because often things needed …

There is no spoon

I'm fairly sure I've written on this topic before. Life.  Seems to be full of ridiculous contradictions.  Well mine is anyway.  I need to sleep but I can't.  I recognise competition is not good for me, but I can't stop competing.  I love to write, but I don't want to complete my writing course.  I …

The day of rest

I was told by the clinical psychologist on Friday that I need a routine. That this would help, to plan in rest time, work time and time for myself. Afterwards I sat alone, pondering the word routine.  Is that all? Is that how little she feels is happening in my life? That a simple routine would …

What’s your unwell?

This'll be a quick update - I'm having trouble with wooziness in the head and looking at computer screens doesn't help.  I expected that after a week of training, long days in a classroom environment, hotel room beds, changed diet and meeting new people I would have some repercussions but I fully expected fatigue not dizziness. …

Warning: this post will mostly be about saliva

But I'll try to make it funny to make up for that... Today I decided to do an adrenal hormone profile, in my quest to find out what is wrong with me, which sounds like sitting down and answering some thorough questions about your energy levels.  Or perhaps what might be listed on the side of …

It is worth pushing on…

Two days ago I saw a new GP from the integrative (read open minded) group.  Only because my other doctor was transferred interstate, however I was glad to have someone new to look over my history, and the result made it clear that it is worth seeking second/third/fourth opinions - if you're not satisfied with …