Yesterday was spent just hanging with my 5 yr old. I am often so flat these days that it just feels like the best thing to do is to stay home and find stuff to do here. She seems to enjoy it, but I worry about when she’s older, will I have kicked this problem by … Continue reading Thyroid is the word…
Last night I felt the best I have in ages. I managed to vacuum my own house. This is a big feat which I haven't had the energy to complete for 9 months or more. I strangely felt worse in the first half of the day than I did in the evening and it caused me to forget to take my … Continue reading WHAT IS IT!?!?!
"What did you dream last night?" my daughter asked me this morning. It's a common question from her, at 3 she's very interested in dreams already. I didn't want to tell her about the nightmare that woke me at 2am last night and stopped me from getting back to sleep for an hour or more. I was … Continue reading The Secret to Nightmares
NO! I said to myself, I will watch Andrew Solomons' latest talk I found on TED here again about forging meaning and see if I can make myself feel better! Entitled 'How the worst moments in our lives make us who we are' I was almost put off the entire talk thinking it would be quite dismal. … Continue reading I heart TED talks
Is the technical term 'jinxing oneself'? Yep, after all that blah blah blah about getting better, today I feel worse. And since I've recently made a pact with myself to sit down and write every time I think of looking at Facebook(!), you're going to hear about it! Seriously though, Facebook is such a big … Continue reading Chronic Fatigue is not a mental disorder
before deciding it's not worth your time. That's a bit how I feel today after seeing my GP again. Here's the things we agreed on: Stop all supplements (except vitamins) because we don't know what side-effects they're having My cholesterol was fine and my mouth is not infected (these have actual proof from tests!) Time … Continue reading Apparently you only read this for 20 seconds…
... or a healthy-eating blogger writing about food. I wish during the day I spent my time noting all the wonderful things my daughter is doing in her third year, instead of the misery of my latest doctors appointment. I wish I could look back on this blog and see all the amazing milestones she's had instead of all of … Continue reading I wish I was a Mummy-Blogger
...and I don't know what's changed in my body. I know a lot has changed in my life and its limitations. Getting out of bed is still hard, and when I say hard that means I lie there for a while gathering the strength to sit up and when I do it's often more a … Continue reading 7 months in
I've been feeling lost at lot this week. The work stuff plays on my mind, so much so that I'm sick of thinking about it. I have to go to a celebration of the result on Saturday night and at the same time I feel happy but like I'm attending a funeral. I feel lost … Continue reading How to be lost
I've been thinking this week about cancelling my next appointment with my GP. I'm wondering what good it will do me to go along and have the same discussion as last time. I have not taken the Cymbalta and I doubt I will. It feels like I'd be adding another thing for my immune system … Continue reading What do I do now?