As the month has gone on my desire to write daily has really waned and at first this bothered me but now it doesn’t. I’m not going to make the (arbitrary) target of 50,000 words this month but I will make around 25,000. I’ve learnt quite a bit, but I’ll save that for the last … Continue reading Day 27: The internet is no longer a place for information
It’s a feeling that I can’t seem to escape. I go through phases where it’s worse than others. I understand that I have a job that not only is commission based and I have no salary but also a job that is quite time sensitive. I really wish that after all these years I could … Continue reading Day 16: Pressure
It must be Day 13. By now I’ve found the thought of updating you on what I’ve eaten, quite dull, so I’ve considered other topics to broach while doing this instead. I’ll just say I haven’t been sticking to the regime at all well. We went out for dinner last night, I had a … Continue reading Day… uh what day is it?
I haven't posted in 3 months and that's a shame because now I can't easily look back and recognise what's been going on. The doctor upped one of my medications back at the end of January and suggested an appointment for June, giving me the impression it was all going to get better. I now … Continue reading Is it ok?
It's a little bit funny...all these feelings inside... Ok so I've borrowed that from the start of an Elton John song. I've woken up early this morning (5:37am) dead tired, sore neck still - it's been almost 3 months now - and wondered to myself where to from here? Just over 2 years ago, I got … Continue reading This is a big, fat drag!
Yup, I did. Well I didn't even finish cleaning it but I did more than I have done for months. Something's been bugging me since I saw the clinical psychologist last week. I had told her that when I wasn't working or looking after my child, I found it hard to relax because often things needed … Continue reading I cleaned my bathroom today
This'll be a quick update - I'm having trouble with wooziness in the head and looking at computer screens doesn't help. I expected that after a week of training, long days in a classroom environment, hotel room beds, changed diet and meeting new people I would have some repercussions but I fully expected fatigue not dizziness. … Continue reading What’s your unwell?
An hour with nothing needing to be done. No stress, no worries and no fears. Finally after more than a year since first becoming ill (probably more than 4 years) and since March 31, 2015 when I realised I was killing myself and went in to work to tell my team as of the next day I … Continue reading And there it was…
This year...I've spent hours at work, wishing I was somewhere else. I've spent hours in bed, wishing I wasn't. I stopped working so many hours thinking I'd be relaxed and leisurely, only to find I filled them up with worries and wondering 'what can I do?' I spent hours planning and re-planning for the future, changing … Continue reading Hours…
As I type this I am really struggling with exhaustion and the accompanying head-achey malaise that comes with it however I feel I have to ask this question. Researching for a detailed post on chemicals in body scrubs (hopefully to be finished soon), I came across a woman identifying as a chronic fatigue sufferer offering her … Continue reading Should health care and advice be free?