The introduction of Levothyroxine to my system, known as Eutroxsig here in Australia has made the biggest change to my health. I no longer feel as tired when I wake, my energy levels throughout the day are better. My mind feels sharper and the pain in both my hip and shoulder has lessened on most … Continue reading Ambition
I can spend hours searching online for answers if the mood strikes me. I fall in and out of feeling the need to search for similar stories to mine and looking for new research, concepts or thoughts. I still feel like I'm looking for what is wrong with me and expecting to find one answer … Continue reading Some lists are good.
The struggle I face mainly is with my own mind. Tasks become apparent that I need to do or even want to do and my mind immediately starts planning, preparing, scheduling and worrying. How can I fit in the shops before I get my daughter? Should I wait till she's here, no she doesn't like the shops, … Continue reading I can and I will
At 40, I was dealt an opportunity to get off the merry-go-round. To halt the meaningless pursuits of my life, to say goodbye to a job that preached endlessly about reward and recognition but didn't recognise me when I was down. To take stock, slow down and recognise and value what was important. It was … Continue reading bending
...but there is an 'M' and an 'E'... was always my response when people threw this hackneyed phrase at me in some training session. Not because I didn't believe in working in teams, but just to make light of the laziness of using a saying to try to give emphasis to an agenda. When I left … Continue reading There’s no I in TEAM…
To clarify, I have not been told I'm dying, not anymore so than any of the rest of us, and for that I am of course thankful. My 4 year old recently asked me how old are we when we die? These are common questions from her, along with were there houses at the start of … Continue reading My psychologist says I have to think about death
It's late again. The internet's switched off. It's almost as if that off switch turns on the power to complete the train of thoughts that have been scratching around the back of my mind all day. I've been really hard on myself for the last week, without even realising it. The psychologist told me to ban … Continue reading What’s going on in my mind?
Being a parent gives you hard edges. With my 4 year old we're at the stage where I'm telling her off every few minutes. You almost couldn't script it better with things I never thought I'd need to say like 'don't touch that, put that down, sit up straight, don't throw that there, pick that up, I'm not … Continue reading Hard edges
I'm fairly sure I've written on this topic before. Life. Seems to be full of ridiculous contradictions. Well mine is anyway. I need to sleep but I can't. I recognise competition is not good for me, but I can't stop competing. I love to write, but I don't want to complete my writing course. I … Continue reading There is no spoon
This'll be a quick update - I'm having trouble with wooziness in the head and looking at computer screens doesn't help. I expected that after a week of training, long days in a classroom environment, hotel room beds, changed diet and meeting new people I would have some repercussions but I fully expected fatigue not dizziness. … Continue reading What’s your unwell?