It's a little bit funny...all these feelings inside... Ok so I've borrowed that from the start of an Elton John song. I've woken up early this morning (5:37am) dead tired, sore neck still - it's been almost 3 months now - and wondered to myself where to from here? Just over 2 years ago, I got … Continue reading This is a big, fat drag!
I've just returned from a warm getaway to an icy cold house in winter and it's left me feeling annoyed. I did this a month or so ago and was left with a nicer feeling that I'm trying to tap into now. Perhaps this time it's just a much colder return? Perhaps winter has just … Continue reading Now
One bit of advice you will receive when dealing with a chronic illness is to 'get your life how you want it'. I first wrote about this idea here https://strangelabel.wordpress.com/2016/01/14/phraseology/ but only in brief because I hadn't tackled it yet. And here's the thing... it's not easy. It sounds easy. It sounds wonderful. But what I've discovered … Continue reading Get your life how you want it
Hashimoto's Thyroiditis... The third doctor at the new centre (since the beginning, 18 months ago, she's the 6th) ran a range of blood tests which showed antibodies to my own thyroid. They were reported as in the 'normal range' which is a term I've come to know well and distrust. My T3 and T4 levels … Continue reading Diagnosis #6…or is it #7?
Stress. I've always thought of it as something business-men get (yes the men was intentional there). I imagine white collars with ties pulled down from the neck, sweating, waving papers about. That's stress. People have thrown about the term 'stressed out' for years. Tired and emotional was always a euphemism for drunk and 'suffering from … Continue reading If this is de-stressing, why does it feel so uncomfortable?
Strap yourselves in... Yesterday I travelled over an hour's round trip for my second appointment with the new doctor who I had placed quite a bit of hope in (realised or not) and when I got there... they'd given my appointment away. Not only that, the 3 receptionists there made a big deal of asking everyone … Continue reading I have a lot to say
...is such an important part of functioning as a person in a society where you have to do everything for yourself. Don't get me wrong, I agree our western world is full of abundance and things to be grateful for, but we don't use our community like others do. Sharing meals, food, clothing, resources, skills … Continue reading Feeling like you can…
"What did you dream last night?" my daughter asked me this morning. It's a common question from her, at 3 she's very interested in dreams already. I didn't want to tell her about the nightmare that woke me at 2am last night and stopped me from getting back to sleep for an hour or more. I was … Continue reading The Secret to Nightmares
NO! I said to myself, I will watch Andrew Solomons' latest talk I found on TED here again about forging meaning and see if I can make myself feel better! Entitled 'How the worst moments in our lives make us who we are' I was almost put off the entire talk thinking it would be quite dismal. … Continue reading I heart TED talks
Last night I had an attack of what I am going to describe as the 'What If? horrors'. Having embraced and digested (pardon the pun) my dairy allergy, it dawned on me that I could soon be better than I have been for the last 8 months. On my first afternoon free I raced to the … Continue reading It is what it is