Yesterday was spent just hanging with my 5 yr old. I am often so flat these days that it just feels like the best thing to do is to stay home and find stuff to do here. She seems to enjoy it, but I worry about when she’s older, will I have kicked this problem by … Continue reading Thyroid is the word…
NO! I said to myself, I will watch Andrew Solomons' latest talk I found on TED here again about forging meaning and see if I can make myself feel better! Entitled 'How the worst moments in our lives make us who we are' I was almost put off the entire talk thinking it would be quite dismal. … Continue reading I heart TED talks
It takes some time to settle into a new routine, to find how you will feel in amongst the day-to-day activities, and I somehow got here without planning to or understanding why. I thought I wanted less time working but now I don't really know if that was true. Perhaps what I needed was time away from where … Continue reading Escapism
Have you ever tried to stuff a bean bag into a small space? If you have, you'll know how silly and challenging it is at the same time, like 10 clowns getting out of a mini, but the other way round and much harder. I've got a brown vinyl bean bag (1 of 2) at … Continue reading Bean Bag Theory
Last night on TV I stumbled across the movie The Matrix. I used to love everything about this film and I'm amazed it's over 15 years old now. The Matrix influenced and change the way action films have been made since then and what I loved about it and had forgotten about it was its … Continue reading There is no spoon
This week I've been so much worse health-wise and I'm looking for a reason, because I don't want to answer to be, this is how it goes. So here are some perfectly reasonable and realistic sounding reasons for why I feel worse this week: * I went to Melbourne for a 24 hour party in … Continue reading I’ve got 99 reasons, but a cure ‘aint one.
...and I don't know what's changed in my body. I know a lot has changed in my life and its limitations. Getting out of bed is still hard, and when I say hard that means I lie there for a while gathering the strength to sit up and when I do it's often more a … Continue reading 7 months in
It's hard to strike the right balance when you're feeling ill, between finding understanding and getting mis-informed. Since talking to the specialist, I have become wedded to the idea that I have glandular fever and Parvovirus. It's easier to understand but I also know that it's speculation with an educated guess. Looking on a local ME/CFS … Continue reading A support group that makes you feel worse?
On Friday I ingested 2.5 grams of vitamin D in one hit and today I had over a ml of vitamin B12 injected into my arm. In between I flew to Melbourne for an awards night and was back in just over 24 hours. Result? Cement veins. Is it a human failing or strength to … Continue reading You are not under any orders…
I've been feeling lost at lot this week. The work stuff plays on my mind, so much so that I'm sick of thinking about it. I have to go to a celebration of the result on Saturday night and at the same time I feel happy but like I'm attending a funeral. I feel lost … Continue reading How to be lost